Don't be shocked:Y Sunday, July 08, 2007Y
9:54 PM
hEya M,life is all about ups and downs aint' it? sometimes i come to wonder, is it that only such amazing or ridiculous things happen to my life? or am i just being sensitive and annoyed and care too much about those things that happen? am i lucky? or am i "sway" sometimes? when bad things happen, i wonder again if i bring misfortune to ppl. as usual, i try to stay optimistic. thats me. putting on a smile as often as possible. laffing it off. such actions really do ease pain. ease stress. ease all the tension i'm going thru'. is life bad now? nah.. its not.. everything is well. except ytd. dun wish to say much. dun even wish to mention to anyone else who doesn't know.
will good-hearted ppl always get lucky? nah..the road's out there is rough.. and lifes tough.. but always think, how bad or worst can situation be? how good or best can a situation be. life is simply a qns mark.
my mind simply is blank nowdays. thats y i stop bloggin for a while. though it can mean that life's good. but it also mean it's meaningless. i can't say that work occupied most of my time, becos'i know some of my time goes to work, some goes to my sleep.eat. shit.play. and recently getting my craze with dramas again. does it equal to my life is meaningless? we can't say that. becos' most ppl do such things everyday. i think i'm born to slog and work. but when i come to a rest, i jus can't get my fat ass up and start doing something. sometimes i even think i'm a single cell person. ppl always tot that i can handle stuff well(though i do, especially in work wise), but other than that, when some f*cking hell things happen, i can't stay focus on 1 or more stuff. single cell person like me can only settle a thing at a time. and no time for others. i might even get piss and illogical when anything comes up. i tink i suck. ya.. sometimes i really tink i do suck. blank blank blank. i tink thats wad i'm good at.
however, i believe in karma. and always believe in being fillial. i know someday, by being fillial, good things will befall me. there is not a need to create happiness. let happiness take it course. let it out from the heart. thats wad i believe too. :) be brave. move on. aJa aJa fighting!
P.S. i learn how to cycle finally last week. but pls dun congrats me. cos i simply dun like any congrats for the time being. however, i did accomplish one of my resolution for this year.