Don't be shocked:Y Thursday, April 05, 2007Y
11:07 PM
m,my thoughts is about them. work? them. braces?them.driving lessons? them. school?them. vacation?them. food? them. fun? them. sleep? them. skiing?them. white snow?them.Gaming?them. Projects? them. Colleagues?them. frEns? them. its all about them after the whole thinking process i'm going through! why cant they just take care of themselves? why? the last two tearing-process i had been through is all about them. why can't they just understand. i dunno how long i can whole anymore. i think my tears are going dry soon. it had been welled up for a long time and now i cant control it. i'm going crazy soon. trust me. i am..
the boatman just dun understand. he jus dun understand. he love his ship so much. but he is not going to repair it becos of his fetish in drinking. ship vs beer? beer wins? ship wins? i dun realli know. when the boatman was sane the v. next day after the waves hit. i told him he should quite drinking. if not he will nv get his ship repaired. neither am i gonna help. frankli speaking, i thought all this realli go thru'his brain. but it din. i teared for him today. alone. sitting in my room. facing the white plain wall. nobody to turn to. nobody who understand. nobody know what my heart, body, mind are going thru. yes. my limit has definitely reach the top. becos'i'm losing myself lateli. my happiness dun last. every1 always think i'm strong. appearance wise yes. heart wise. no. totalli opposite. i get piss easily lateli. get sad easili too. i just wish they "behave" themselves.
always them them them!and they don't get it!
how long am i still gonna hold.. oh god.. where r u, m? i need you...