Don't be shocked:Y Thursday, March 08, 2007Y
9:01 PM
m.,i should call u that now rather than addressing u as mr. m, i might as well think of a name for you. i was thinking of getting a new name for u ytd night.. but there's no nice name that came across so i did not waste my brain cells further.
wan to say congratulation to someone after i seen that information accidentalli. but the stubborness and consious in me told me i shouldn't. i dun wan to give the person any -ve tot. i dun wan to spoil the person happy moments. so hereby, i congratulate the person. deep in my hrt. the days i spend w the person flash baq. i remembered the days when we are together, spending our time together. but what memories are memories. bygones are bygones as they said.
i flying off to india again on sun. but i'm not that excited frankli. maybe i have been doing too much travelling as compared to the rest of my colleagues or frens. but of cos. i still love travelling. i think its good. sometimes, it sorta gimme a break. though i'm still working, but it still gimme a break. i can jus soak myself in the tubbie and nice warm water pouring on my body. the feeling is great. relax. nice.
see.. i'm single.. going anywhere or doing wadever is not restricted. every morning when i wake up, it feel so great. i can do wadever i wan, nobody to report to. not tied down. but when the dawn knocks, damn, something jus overcome all these great things i'm experiencing. i realise i have no one to tok to. though i seem to be always talkative when i'm w ppl, but i nv get serious. i have no one to share my joy, laffter, sadness, troubles or just normal words w. maybe its not that nobody wanna listen to me, but the older i get, i din realli speak that much. i was doing some thinking about this the last few days, when i'm in sec, i can jus speak on the phone for hours even when i see my class mates everyday. thats horrible rite? now, i hardli speak on the phone though my phone bill is still enormous( its becos' of the travelling). m, wad do you think? are u experiencing all this too?
i think i'm aging too fast then my age. and yes, i finalli paid off my degree fee finalli. i forgotten if i mention in my earlier post. and the feeling is great. i invested about 16k in this piece of shit. so, what shit will i get in return? i dun even noe whad are my prospect. how is my future like. or what am i going to do w life. m, what do you think is the element/s to complete life? i have been thinking about that. issit love? issit a famili? issit work? issit money? what is it exactly? my brains screws are all dettach i guess. i can't find the ans. will i find the ans? will i ever find the ans..
** will a fish be always a fish?