Don't be shocked:Y Monday, March 05, 2007Y
10:30 PM
Dear Mr.Mwho are you indeed? you played diff roles in my life. i can't differentiate now whether are you a devil or an angel. devastated? nope. perfectly fine. demoralising in fact. i have not been in my best spirits these few days though everyday is hectic. i played, sleep, eat well the past week. i enjoyed my ktv session, clubbing session, mahjong session and movie session these past one or two weeks. maybe becos' its the monday blue that wash me down the drain more than usual.
i had lots of silly thoughts lately. and always wanted to write to you. but somehow, you did not really inspire me that much or yearn to write to you that much. i have been capture in my own thoughts n world. the only time i wanted to write when i was in bed. but by then, i was already deadbeat. impossible to write to you.
all of a sudden, you are my best fren. i really haven been wanting to tok or blog. all i wanted is just think. the older i get, the more i will swallow the pain and i think i even swallow the happiness down. haha.
i wanted to swim like a fish, wandering and swimming around. even in a tank. i'm satisfied. becos' all i need to do is jus flipping my fins and waiting for my owner to feed me. or just starving to death. ah. wonderful though ain't it? haha. ok.. maybe i should rephrase, nah.. maybe i should just blog some other time.
fighting spirit? there's none.