Don't be shocked:Y Friday, December 29, 2006Y
1:07 AM
its not me today. i'm not acting like i'm me. i get so piss today. and i'm like attacking every1 who is trying to shower me w care. the more they do that. the more i wanna kill them. i'm not trying to attract attention. i'm trying to jus stay out of the way. becos'the more i speak the more i wanna explode. the limit i have its going overheaded soon. i'm not sure wads wrong w me. becos everything seems wrong. and everything is not in the way i wanted.today i read someting about horoscope. they say pieces get angry very easily but they dun show it. thats true. i get angry easili but i din show it. but i did it today. when volcanoes explode. nothing can stop the lava from flowing. and its hot and red. i cant stop my anger from grewing. it jus get puff up and up.
anyway i'm kind of sad today.. becos i have been working for this account for Nokia for 2 years. and today is the last closing i'm gonna do. nobodi said anyting. nobody mention the sadness. somehow the sadness is fighting within me. all my experiences i get.. seem to be going down the drain. u might say it ll be useful to the work.. wont go down the drain. but u dunno how much i effort i put in.. the "sweat" i put in to build the r/s w my customer. u dunno how much effort i been thru' to let ppl trust me and believe in my work. now i'm gonna do it all over again. i dunno where i'm heading. i dunno anything about everything. basicalli my mind is blank. and everything is gonna me hit baq to 0.
new yr resolution? simple. stay focus. stay happy. stay healthy. haven been thru' much thinking about my resolution. i ll think carefulli, post it in my blog. and always referring to it the nx yr. definiteli one of the resolution mus be. stay blogging.
breakthru' this yr? none. if u count that after dating for 5 yrs and staying single this yr is a breakthru. then it shall be. no promotion. graduation is nx yr. same job. pay is still as low. variable bonus is postpone. so where's the breakthru? haha.
who say "sa ren you sa fu"?if thats real, i rather be more dumb nx yr. at least there wont be much things to worri. life is jus as tough no matter if i'm clever or not. life is not gonna be easy if you work hard. nah. never. i begin to realise that in this real world, being clever or hardworking is "kum pui" (uselesss). lets jus see where fate takes us to.
i suddenli decide to give those ppl that make me angry upset or hurt Mr. M. dunno why. jus struck me.
Dear Mr. M,
Pls use ur arse to think before u tok and stop hurting ppl ard u who r harmless to u. tell me wad the fuck u are trying to act as? acting stuck up? trying to be a bastard? trying to let ppl hate u morE? come on.. lets stop making each other life miserable. use a little more brain.. a little more thinking b4 u try saying something. everything will be fine if u use that.