Don't be shocked:Y Monday, October 30, 2006Y
10:39 PM
*drumz* result was out for my singing competition and hell... we didn't get in.. but it was alrite.. anyway exams was during that period, so it was kinda a gd news to me in a bad way. nothing realli happen lately and my life was as boring as ever. nothing happen. famili good, work is plain, juz plain studying.i realise though there are things happening in my life, as i grew older, i kept more things to myself. though i still tok alot but i dun say much now. maybe its becos of the thinking, i see more things, experience more things and feel more. doesn't wish to say much becos' comparing my own "problems" w other ppl ones.. mine is jus kachang putih.
sometimes i feel i am a wise, considerate, warm-hearted soul. but sometimes when the anger jus come.. i guess i jus cant controlled it. it is juz too overwhelming. does that mean i'm naive? hot tempered? thats me i guess. cant change for now and i'm not sure about the future.
trying hard to find a motive in life. still trying to noe wad i'm striving for. last mth, the greed and eagerness to work abroad is so huge. but wad abot this mth? i wish i can get and achieve my wants and satisfied my greed here. but is it thats all i wan? i guess i wan more than that which i myself cant quote. what to do? i'm greedy. haha
but have you ever been so disappointed in life before? till u cant stand up. till u cant face the world alone? i haven been. i haven been thru the most disappointing time of my life. when will i experience it? cos i noe, if i nv experience such huge setback i nv grew. u may think i'm bian tai.. but i guess thats life. if u never taste anything bitter, how do u noe wad sweetness taste like?