Don't be shocked:Y Monday, September 11, 2006Y
9:28 PM
i nv tot i will post another entry so soon.. but i cant control myself..my hrt is acheing now.. dun ask me why, cos even if i say.. nobodi will understand.. cos i cant even understand.
my mind isn't in peace. all i wanna do is curse and swear. i have been running to get away from all tots. i tot that the sweat will give me peace. today isn't a good day too. i went for a run.. i ran non-stop for 40mins.. its already over my limit..but i dunno where i got the power and strength from. i jus keep running n running. i dun feel like stopping till the sky turn real dark. and i know i need to head home n face the reality.
i begin to feel so unsatisfied with many things. everything is not going my way. i am always hitting the wall no matter which way i'm walking. i'm tired of walking now. life has not been so miserable for so long. i'm always getting this emptiness so often. i dunno who can feel this gap.
i only noe i'm wont be able to hold any longer. i'm gonna to leave soon. i'm running away from whad i'm suppose to face and i will promise to find the enlightenment in life. the life i wan the best.even though i will feel more emptiness when i'm gone. but i will go in search for my real life. experiencing life. reaching for it. and i noe.. i wont find it here.