Don't be shocked:Y Saturday, June 17, 2006Y
11:08 PM
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noting much. just want to tok about this word called jealous.
jeal·ous (jls)
adj.
1. Fearful or wary of being supplanted; apprehensive of losing affection or position.
2.
a. Resentful or bitter in rivalry; envious: jealous of the success of others.
b. Inclined to suspect rivalry.
3. Having to do with or arising from feelings of envy, apprehension, or bitterness: jealous thoughts.
4. Vigilant in guarding something: We are jealous of our good name.
5. Intolerant of disloyalty or infidelity; autocratic: a jealous God.
jealousy to moi, is not a bad or negative meaning. to me, its someting someone who usualli are ashame of to say. like when we are jealous of someone, it should actualli act as a motivation for us to acheive what we are jealous of. rather than turning it to a negative issue. jealousy sometimes turns to hate becos' you are jealous of what the person have and their success. which i think its not a good thing. learn to appreciate. learn to be motivated by it. dun jus sit and sulk. grumbling about what the ppl have and hate him/her. jus becos'the person is more successful then u.
i feel that alot of ppl dun appreciate life. thanking god about what he has given to us. feel blessed be blessed. there are more ppl who are more misfortunate then us. u have the right to be sad, feel sad. but please dun make ppl life's miserable. its not wrong to feel sad but its wrong to build your sadness to other people.
i noe that moi loudness in speech is irratating alot people, if u feel piss about it. dun tok to me. if u dun appreciate that thats me. i'm sorri. i wont change for u. i'm loud. i''m gonna be loud. god gave me a loud voice. a loud voice which will come to use someday. if u think i'm irratating u. jus fuck off.
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mOi paREnts fight
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not moi parents fighting with each other. but some couple fought with them. erm.. maybe is my dad who started the fight first. but wadever. my dad started telling moi the stories a few days ago....
these couple, ard my parents age, waited for them outside the club ... ( moi parents are chiongsters) den the guy go up to moi dad and started shouting to my dad saying moi dad was very kaopei in the club just now and why so xialan (those that think i'm loud moi dad is louder. thats where i inherited from.) den say wan to find ppl to beat moi dad up if he ever come back to the club again. den moi dad was darn piss. push moi mum aside. use his tiger claws and attack the guy neck and started fighting. den he saw moi mum was fighting w the guy wife too. so he push the guy onto the floor, run to rescue moi mum. he gave the biatch a kick on her stomach and off she flies! somehow it ended when passerbys stop them saying the police are here. so off they ran. i guess.
moi stubborn dad says he going to the club today! saw him ironing his t-shirt not wearing his usual nice shirt today. he say he ready to fight today so dun wan wear nice nice. stupid him. so old le still so childish. unbelivable. anyway it ended like that. not sure what will happen today.....
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other things that happen in life
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exaMs ovEr.. the sLeepineSs and tirEdnesS are finalLi showing out. gave moiself a break today. slept like 17 hrs? haha... wAs out wiTh cHrissie aftEr woRk ytd.. wAtch some children movie describe by her (the show is RV lor...) she says i like "children show"..
(P.S. Children show refers to Hi 5 pOweR rAnger lor .. my dearie chris *haha* ) den we went for kenny rOger and we talk .. realising how old we are now.. =( .. tok alot though it was jus a small dinner chat.. i like to with chris. toking to her felt good.=D (lovie u babe)
but we went home quite earli.. i reach home like 11++.. at 1st i wanted to blog.. but gotten lazy.. and i was thinking some reflection about myself while i was in the shower.. den somehow i'm not in the best of my mood. gotten quite angry w myself in fact. i began asking myself. "wads true, when everything seems so fake? wads true, when everything seems blank." realise how tired i was.. so i slept like 1230. and was in a deep sleep. actualli i woke at ard 9+ for a pee. and force myself back to slp again.. and slept till 530. every1 was still aslp.. except my parents becos they need to work. say i'm a pig. my bro n sis are still sweet aslp @ that time. usualli when i'm awake.. i ll make sure the others at home r awake too. sO i scReamed and woke every1 up =D
fElt fUCking hungry! i dreAmt i was eating swEnseN.. and when i woke up.. sALiva was dripping... =)~~~ ...wEnt to have biLly bombErs and cAtch gArfield 2 w mOi sis..spEnd a bOmb! unbelievabli, my sis so skinny still can eat so much. eat billy le, watch movie eat popcorn, finish movie go buy cheesecake and eat. *puKez* now she standby going mkt 85 eat somemore!