Don't be shocked:Y Saturday, May 06, 2006Y
3:29 PM
damn... why always sway things happen to moi? god.. dun think just becos i toot toot u guys can bulli moi.. my Fighting spiRit to be discipline to go library study was 100% ytd nite.. but due to the supper and late bed time.. morrning the fighting spirit drop to 90% (still not bad).. irritatin.. noe wad happen? ok.. i had moi dinner w moi colleague ash.. den after that i head str8 to the library ( i even got a bot of mineral water)... den i realise the library is closed... its becos of the stupid election or someting.. i din reali manage to read the things becos... library is actualli a very popular place.. and there were grps of ppl surrounding those post.. so i tot ok.. i will head for the bedok lib instead.. i waited for the buz to bedok.. n it was like a drag..i waited about 20 mins for the buz? n the buz trip is longer den usual.. maybe becos of the peak time.. by den my fighting spirit immediateli drop to 50%... i still manage to drag moiself to there n realise bedok lib oso close.. god.. now its 10% now..in the end i headed for the mac instead.. god..
these few days i was very into this gay block introduce to moi by moi son aka mr royston huh.. the blog is very interesting about these 2 17 yr old bois.. i mean i'm interested in their life.. since they are so willing to post it in the www. i guess they shld noe there will be like moi reading it? no offense but.. now all those guys ard when i see in the ta ma lu.. all seems gay to moi.. haha.. i think even moi own guy fren i tink they are gays.. *aHem*
anyway last wk i told moi mum maybe i shld go be lesbians.. and noe wad her repli was? "zhe yang ah... hao lay.. wo bu yong pang ni kan hai zi" n moi bro was like.. "ma.. wo shen yi ge hai zi gei ni kan hao bu hao? "... den moi repli was like "ni bu shi shou ni bu yao jie hun ma?"..... the 21st century reply... "shen huai zi bu yi ting yao jie hun..." =.="....
zoom...* back to today.. actualli nothing much happen today.. today was our period closing.. and the system is down.. but i'm not sure WHY THE HACK AM I STILL BuSY... till date.. i got like 450 junk emails in my outlook.. its like 4 to 5 mths..? i nv clear my junk mails? trust moi.. i am that busy... but sometimes i rather chit chat abit rather than reading these mails...
and today.. our whole team actualli went to build this LEGO thingie huh.. to enter for competition... the top price is Euro1000!! great rite? but the team consists of like 15 ppl? so 1 ppl maybe 50 bucks ba.. haha.. but onli if we are lucki to win lor.. nicE??and good news for today... due to our election tmr ... the govt have declared it as a public hols.. so our company will be giving us 1 day annual leave since we are 5 day work wk.. ahhahaha... goods news for this week man... since i tink nothing realli good happen to moi nowadays...
hMm.. actualli today i quite emotional.. becos i was busy working.. i was signing invoices (which do not need brain cells..) so suddenli feel veri empty.. like wanna cry out.. (becos some memories came...) i tink its partly becos i din cry for so long.. last time watch drama still got cry... but now no time watch.. also dun dare watch.. cos i'm a drama fanatic! i will be like a fish.. hook! so maybe thats y i feel empty.. anyway.. after 5 yrs of relationship.. i'm now walking alone.. facing the world alone.. ders no ppl next to moi.. even moi parents tink im old enuff to take care of moiself.. but i felt empty ..feeling empty... becos the care n love i used to have before.. does not belong to moi now.. i does not have it now.. but how am i going to earn a new one? sometimes i may seem strong in the front.. but my i'm not.. but frenz.. if u came to see this entry dun worri about me.. i jus need to learn to get up moiself.. i'm still learning to survive this loneliness.. becos now.. there's no one always by moi side when i wanna watch movie.. whenever i wan eat this or that.. whenever i wan to col someone.. ders no this person anymore... maybe i shld stop being strong..
aJa aJa fiGhting... FigHting SpiRit *hiokz)
jOrine (".)