Don't be shocked:Y Sunday, May 28, 2006Y
10:27 PM
i was having moi "mee kai soup" alone b4 hitting the library today.. i got a $2 note left on moi table to pay for mOi drink... dEn got 1 cAi shen ye come to the cOffEe shop.. all the aUntie n uncLes weRe... "waH-ing".. "cAi sHen ye lAi le aH.."... i wAsnt givIng a dAmn.. dEn tHe cAi shen yE cOMe to mOi tAble muMbLe a fEw wOrds.. "eYes loCk on mOi $2.." den without any hesistation.. i jUz tOok thE 2 bUcks.. pUt intO the yUan bAo.. dEn hE gaVe mOi a hOngbaO wiTh 4 digits.. (i wAS like did i puT the 2 buCks in it??) ok.. i did.. i treat it as charity. although after he had gone.. i wonder if the $ collected ..where ll it go? mOst probably intO his poCket.. wadever.. sO i juS lEft the ang bao on the tabLe.. continuing devOuring mOi mee.. dEn the sell mEe auNtie come ovER.. say.. " gAl ah.. hong bao shou qi lai.. bu yao gei ren jia gan dao ah..." aCtualli nO bIg deAl about it lar...
dEn i tOt juS dRop by to go buy the numbers lor.. i haven been like buying 4Ds for like so long until i cant remember when i have stop buying? i'm not much of a gambler actualli.. ( ok.. i always go genting casino.. but its jus diff..) den i was slacking the whole day today.. (going to the library was another thing.. i din noe i can slack there too..) so i was lying on the sofa.. and remember i had bot 4D today.. and i was only interested in the 1st 3 prices.. den nv open.. i tot wad the hack.. when i wan to shut off the tv.. i saw that i strike the starters.. but it was ibet.. so its like less then 30 bucks? lOlz... anyway its my first strike this yr and moi 1st number i buy for the yr (if i'm not wrong..) so lucky me.. i guess.. lOlz..
ok.. this weekend was boring.. i din go anywherE.. acTualli plan to meet up with the biatches today.. but every1 was busy n i'm tired too after a week of tiring work.. (although i slept the whole day ytd i'm still tired...) also no bowling session.. so damn sianz.. cant stand it.. i'm jus bored.. today.. i suddenli realise wad does L.O.N.E.L.I.N.E.S.S and S.I.N.G.L.E.H.O.O.D means.. i need to learnt about this.. adapt it. actualli i wan to juz keep going out.. n not being alone.. but its unavoidable.. u need to be alone.. wad the hell.. i juz need to get to do things alone moiself.. maybe its just the work stress and exams stress hitting me too hard..
count down to exams its like 3 weeks? and i dunno where am i.. moi brain is a blank.. moi heart is a blank.. i dunno wad i wan.. frustrated ... devastated.. feel like quitting and saying no...
aJa aJa fiGhting.. fiGhting spiRit... *hIokz* *hIok*
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