Don't be shocked:Y Friday, May 05, 2006Y
4:38 PM
ok.. what has happen? i jus came home not long ago.. and its 1am according to moi laptop timing now.. bad day.. i noe its late n i have to wake up after like 5 or 6 hrs of sleep? but i still tot .. i should post someting in my blog.. den i was reading wad i was writing ytd.. n somehow.. my closing wad like blablabla... fiTing Spirit.. den i spotted i got a spelling error.. and i itchy hand go edit the blog.. i i click publish post.. den i realise the entry was like cut to 1/3? left..?? *OMG* O.O what the shit have i done.. it was very VERY i mean extremely discouraging.. (maybe i overeacted a little) but it was discouraging.. anyway its my first post.. n i'm not good with the blog functions.. i tried keep clicking BACK.. hope i can retreive something or ANYTHING.. but somehow.. all gone.. maybe i'm not good at this. but its ok.. never experience never learn.. =(
i'm not gonna backtrack wad i wrote ytd and re write.. they are way past tense.. so i'm juz gonna write wad i did today..
hMm.. a siMple gurl like mOi.. have a very lazy habit.. go work take cab.. go home take cab.. (but good news.. i walk home today *sort of* after my supper).. the morning sun was blaring.. cant stand it.. and i was thinking.. god.. another day has pass so fasT? i did nothing meaningful again (as usual) ytd... my oh my.. i was still so sleepy.. and definitely find it a drag--- to go work.
ok.. sometimes i feel that i'm too responsible.. but its ok.. thats mOi.. not trying to brag.. but i hate my this character of being responsible.. i worried about everything.. during my cab trip.. although i was still like 1/2 asleep.. i'm thinking of work.. wad shld i do when i get there.. how fast i should complete my certain things.. and wad time i shld start my updating of report.. i was so SO setting a target for my self..
HuR! i became hysterical when after my lunch break.. again.. everything was like pile up.. i appreciate my other colleagues helping mOi... i guess its jus mOi.. certain things i jus wan to do it moiself.. i jus cant delegate all out.. i got so many worries and thoughts about my work.. maybe today is period closing.. so the system will be down at 9pm.. so we need to finish all our work by 9..god...
i hate period end.. i think its so so so disorganise? whatever.. dunno how to describe this day... its always a havoc to moi.. it happen every month but i jus cant seem to get use to it.. although sometimes i say my used... but actualli i'm not.. each n every period end is like getting more n more tiring for moi...
i love moi work.. but there's jus some certain things i cant accpt.. ok.. dun say my boss throw moi to die w my pile of work.. ders ppl helping moi.. but its only HER. she's moi buddy in work... but she nv acted like she's moi buddy... she onli helps when i'm off work and onli Do THiNGS THAT ARE REaL REAL urgent..
of cos.. she look pitiful as she is always being nag (scold) by moi.. or moi other colleagues.. but sometimes i do feel she deserve it.. even she happen to see this post.. come on ger.. please wake up.. if u are going to carry on with this attitude.. u ll nv make it to the top.. maybe u can say u nv ever wanted to make it to the top.. but at least try to let ppl like u? for goodness sake.. i am trying to like her very very much.. (i dun anyhow hate ppl)but sometimes..when responsible ppl meet a non responsible one.. its a headache..maybe u may think she is not in the fault.. do u think i am? try putting urself in moi shoes... god.. i think ppl realli dunno the pressure i'm having.. (not that kua zhang la..) ?? haiz..
but today i manage to pamper moiself with supper.. (which i always do... *grinz*) i ate pÓrk zhok.. ( pork= pork lar.. zHok is hokkien porridge) so it will sound like pork chop? wahahaha.. ate chicken wing n satay.. i noe its sinful.. but i'm already fAT n blotted.. so its ok..haha..
i jus can say.. today is not a very good day for moi.. what i have posted has happen on 04.5.06 not 05.05.06. so its friday today!! nothing to be happi about cos i plan to go study in library tmr cos exams is like coming? onli can say part time degree not that easy to take.. so guess tmr wont be that interesting as today i hope..
aJa aJa FiGhting...!! mOi fighTing sPiritz *hiokz*
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